rants

Pretty sure that if someone really treat you as a bestfriend would not do something that make you upset? I have so many question marks in my brain now. What should I do? What can I do? What will I do? How I wished somebody is there to teach me what to do.

"Usually when you're down, the only person who can make you feel better will probably be the person behind why you're upset."

I don't know why it upset me. Friends come and go, some, I rly don't mind losing. But obviously this friendship I can't afford losing, and I don't want to. I don't know how should I express it, I am rly a loser when it comes to explaining and sometimes I explain in the wrong way which leads to miscommunication. I wished I knew what to do. But now all I can do is to ignore and heck care. But fuck, I don't want to. Argh forget it. 

I hope you would come back

Vesak's day

Greeting from us! 

Enjoyed myself today with the shelter's volunteer! They sacrificed their Vesak's day just for today's photography session for the dogs! Although it was very hot, but we enjoyed ourself! Wasn't feeling well as my asthma relapse, luckily I brought my inhaler along or else I really don't know how do I survive thru the day! Thanks god. 

Chelsea, I'm glad that she had walked out from her fear. She finally have some confidence for yourself, she usually just hide in the kennel. Look at her now? Isn't she pretty? ^.^ 

Pardon me for the blur photo as I used IPhone's camera. This is Minky! She is one of the dog that is easy to take photo, haha she will post for you one! This picture was taken in a car if you realize so I couldn't take a nice photo of her! :( Well, I rly hope someone would adopt her soon, as she deserve somewhere better with lots of love and care. 

Shelter is definitely not a place for all dogs to stay after all, right? But firstly, in my own opinion I think some of the people who stay in condo/terrace would prefer to get pedigree dogs instead BUT there are still people who prefer to adopt instead of buying of a puppy mill. =) 

I hope more people would choose to adopt than buying from a puppy mill, because when you buy you're supporting breeding which means their parent had to suffer from breeding non stop till they no longer able to do so. You can google it.

 Yes, the puppy is cute. But to think of their parent, don't you think its cruel to treat animal this way because of money? You buy = you support. You support = more breeding. When will this stop then? 

Question asked like:

1) If I don't buy, where can I adopt then? I am living in a HDB-flat. 

- You can adopt from various rescuer or from Voice for Animal. But usually all are age above 5 years old. They won't look good, but if you have patience, yes the dog will look good after your care, grooming, etc.. Because they have suffered enough it's our turn to care for them, give them lots of love.

2) But I am keen in puppy only. Where can I adopt? 

- Firstly, do you have time for a puppy? Remember puppy are still puppy, they will have their puppy-hood. For example teething, hyper active. Can you handle? 

- Secondly, puppy needs lots of care too, and feeding. Do you have time?

- Lastly, most of the puppy for adoption are non-hdb approved. 

There are people who tell me, " those dog got disease or not? they are stray dogs leh". 

My answer to your question is " Before the dogs are being rehome, they will go for a check up and vaccination for protection. They are called stray dog because they live in the street, but if they are rescue, they no longer call stray dogs. They are unique in their own ways. =) " 

if you are willing to help, you can start from volunteering! :D 

Good night. 

What is family?

When I was primary four, I started witnessing my parent quarreling and fights. No one could really understand me, I did not tell anyone how I felt back then. I was still a primary school student. Whenever they quarrel and fight, I would cry – I don't know what can i do. Who can I tell? My teacher? My friends? I really hope I did share with them, but it's too personal to me. Even if I had shared with my friends they are too young to tell me what to do too. Teachers? I afraid they would call my parent and ask about it, I don't want them to know how I felt.  All I could do is to pray that they would stop. It is affecting me since then. Once, I sit in the room, I asked the god in my heart, when can I have a happy family? I don't mean no fight and quarrel. I just want my parent to at least concern and know what they should to do. They are adults, why can't they put us in their first priority than quarreling/fight Infront of us? Moreover, we are their children, it is their job. 

Crying silently hoping someone could understand how you felt. You don't know how to describe. You just want to cry your heart out. 

Even up till now at the age of 15, I still see the same thing happening. I stopped them, they continued. Few days later, start again. I would help my mom and became me and my dad quarrel instead. There are so many things I wished I could share here but I couldn't. I tried to ignore, I rly tried. But failed. I want to be mean, but I am not mean enough because they are still my family, my parent. Can I just want them to care for us more? Not only our studies, our day in school, my day in shelter. I really want to have a good talk with my mom, about how happy am I whenever I do volunteer work. I really shouldn't think this way but I always tell myself " if I do good things, god would treat me better. " but god insist of giving me such a life. What could I have done in my past life or in this life as in bad things? 

All I ever ask for is to have a happy loving family.  ☹

I want others to envy me, my happy family. But, from the day they started, it is the day I started to envy people's family. My house is always noisy, why? Quarrels and fights. No jokes at all. I don't even know how to share my problems my family. To me, " what is family? "