1 of the thing that makes girls happy

One of the thing that will make me feel happy is feeling/looking skinny. 

I was skinny before secondary/puberty starts. After since I entered secondary one, I became fat. My stomach is very big, I feel like i'm pregnant for 4 months aww. :( 

 I did not really notice that I grew fatter each day, and the start of the new year of 2011, my cousin started telling me I have grew fatter embarrassed me! But I told myself it okay... till one day I wore a high waisted short. I look fucking fat till I don't even dare to wear that short ever again. I can't remember how I weight in sec 1 but I am currently 152cm and 44 kg. 

And I think I'm getting quite near to my target! :) I love to see improvement! Especially my body. skinny/flat stomach is what I want to achieve! 

And indeed, I lost weight, and have a smaller stomach!! :)

But of cuz I suffered for it. Like... eating fruits. I didn't like to eat papaya seriously! Lol then one day I was feeling fat/bloated, and I went to do a research on how to lose weight, fast. Then I saw how beneficial papaya is, like help to digest food fast! Dietary fibre all this haha. I also eat lesser rice, because again I read but from facebook. The status said rice actually digest very slowly, so I was scared la haha i love to eat rice, even with the sauce ah i also can finish it. But fr my body I sacrifice.. I decided to go on no rice at home! I only eat vegetables and if there's meat I will eat a little. 

Anyw, I love to eat vegetables... I can eat the whole packet of veggies.. I don't understand why do people dislike it!!!! SO FUCKING NICE!! & im craving for a plate of veggies now. *HAIS* 

Did not have before photo. :( 

and i guess i wouldn't dare to take it.. but anyway here's my after. :) 

I also go for a run when I feel like it, at night. I don't like to run in the morning/afternoon!!! SUCK MY THUMB! I DON'T LIKE SUN. AND NIGHT IS VERY COOLING! :D 

Running at night also can give you a better sleep! Isn't it good?!?!?! 

Lose weight and have a better sleep at the same time = AWESOME!!!

If you're gonna say you're lazy, then cut down carbohydrate in take.. Like sweet drinks.. 

Drink more water!!!! It's very very very hot recently, so drinking water also help you to be hydrated! 

Eat more fruits and veggies.. Papaya, banana, apple all this! those fruits that have high dietary fibre! ;) 

OR. HIT THE GYM! Don't be shy, though there's lots of guys but you do not need to care! Just do what you need to do and tadaaaaa leave for home! ;) 

Remember, less carbohydrate!!! :) 

ok my eye are closing and i'm heading to my bed now. 

Hope you enjoyed reading, and this help! :) 

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Need to rest

Has been working for the past two days, manager training me to be a cashier, and I finally managed to remember all the menu and how does the burger look like etc. I'm sorry to those customer that I gave wrong amount of change on the first day, luckily most of them are forgiving  :) 

On the second day, was a nightmares for me. I am not gonna blog about that incident but that is my second time doing counter and I meet such customer early in the morning which make me feel scared, worst still, I have to apologise for doing nothing. :( 

I wasn't in wrong. Sigh......

But customer is always right since I'm working right? So I got no choice but to apologise even though it's not my fault. I felt sad, because I was fame for nothing. And I lost confidence after that. I am really thankful to my manager who helped me to settled and still ask me to jiayou! My colleague was really nice, she is willing to help and teach me, she too encourage me and gave me confidence! She taught me the most. :) Thanks for their encouragement I managed to pull myself back. :)

 I must say I really have nice colleague and manager. I enjoyed working so much here although it's tiring! Of cause, can't wait for the pay, to roll into my bank!! ^.^  Will be working till school starts.. That's tiring, but I know I can do it! 

I don't know what's this picture for. For decoration la ok? Haha! 

but anyway I have always wanted a tongue piercing. But I am rly afraid of the pain.

And naval piercing too.. 

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RANTS 

I hate the facts that I am born with a thick eyebrow, not being pretty, not skinny enough, not good enough for everything, lousy at almost EVERYTHING, and worst still, a not good very nice temper.

But that's the facts, that's me. I can't really change everything, but one thing I really want to change, my temper. I can get pissed off very easily. Really don't like it. So all this while, I have been trying my very best to endure my temper. I can do it! Gambatte!!!! 

I am thankful to Sandrea the one who endure my attitude for bloody 3 years. If it's other I guess they might already left. She is also willing to volunteer with me, every saturday to shelter and also sometimes stray feeding. I have been thru many many things with her, and I am proud that I am her friend, her best friend. I really hate myself for feeling scared that she doesn't treat me as her best friend at times. And I can't afford to lose her either. And sometimes I really hate her for not scolding me, my fucking attitude! And still always letting me to win although I actually lost. She is the best of the best.<3 

Start to appreciate your love ones before it's too late.